And I Won’t Let Go

Sum 41 – With Me

I don’t want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I’ll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
‘Cause it’s true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won’t let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I’ll hold on to this moment you know
‘Cause I’d bleed my heart out to show
And I won’t let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn’t have so, I won’t let this go
‘Cause it’s true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I’ve come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won’t let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I’ll hold on to this moment you know
‘Cause I’d bleed my heart out to show
And I won’t let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don’t know what you’re looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don’t want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won’t let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I’ll hold on to this moment you know
‘Cause I’d bleed my heart out to show
And I won’t let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won’t let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I’ll hold on to this moment you know
‘Cause I’d bleed my heart out to show
And I won’t let go

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Coming close to the end of service term, you start to realise many things. Maybe it’s not the system that you hate, but it’s the people who are in the system.

Where have all the “nice” people gone? Or maybe it was all just a facade for them to get through smoothly. It’s really awful to always see the same bunch of hands being raised up, because it shows that remaining 80% just doesn’t give a damn at all!

Really, no one really gives a damn anymore. We’re left with just these bunch of helpful people who never cease to help others. Everyone’s beginning to show their selfish side, or maybe because they think they are more superior, and should not lower their status in anyway by helping out at all. And what’s worst, your fellow cadet-superior is a bleedy hypocrite

Well, it’s ending soon, so let it be over and done with. To start off, I should not fall into that trap and get into that kind of attitude that the rest are in. And well, Saturday’s to look forward to.

Cheers to those who still care. and to those who don’t, best of luck in your journey of becoming a screwed-up officer

Unwell?

Something I can’t fathom. How is it that a person can feel like he’s going crazy on the inside, and yet put up such a normal front in everybody’s face?

My Findings From My Medical Review

While it’s only been my second time at NUH, I feel that at both times I’m there, the place seems to leave me having the “wtf” feeling. I seem to always be waiting for something to happen, and then I continue waiting, and waiting, and waiting. And what do you know, the same Indian doctor (nothing racist, really) who made me wait for more than half an hour in his consultation room on Saturday (with me dozing off here and there) attended to me today, making me wait aimlessly for another 20 minutes or so before attending to my injury. After that it was just something like “oh, your injury’s fine, you can be discharged immediately”.

I tell you, if I hadn’t had that pretty-looking nurse attending to me, I would’ve reached my way into a scalpel somewhere and jabbed it into his eye. That’s pretty much what I get for waiting 20 minutes sitting down on a bed with pretty much nothing to stare except for either the computer’s screensaver, or the precis which I had in my bag.

Sadly, the stitch is not due yet, so I’ll still have to wait till Tuesday to have it removed. And yeah, although my MC is till Friday, I’ll be booking in again later due to important lessons I have to attend. And if anything to look forward to, perhaps it is the commissioning parade which is happening this Saturday. Never been to one before to know how it feels like, so yeah, let’s see what am I gonna gather from there.

Out of Action

Is it just me, or did life just got boring after school? I don’t know. I guess I just miss all those laughter we had despite how stressful times were back then.

Anyways, I’m on my fourth day at home now after being hacked…I mean whacked on my hand by my re-digging buddy. It’s a stupid accident which could have definitely been avoided if you ask me. And for a minor injury like that, the doctor gave me 7 days of MC, 7 freaking days, can you imagine? But anyways, I should be returning to camp tomorrow evening before my MC is due, cause of some important lessons to attend.

These few days at home is pretty much like me taking an early block leave, or maybe I might not even be having a block leave if I get posted to support arms (which I do hope so). I definitely got back all the rest which I was so deprived of during Scorpion King last week. And if anything, I definitely treasure being able to sit down and slowly enjoy some home-cooked food, instead of taking 10 minutes to rush whatever I have to eat because I have to make sure 39 other guys finish their food on time and head off to wherever we have to head to.

Scorpion King helps you realise how much you treasure sleep, with us being lucky enough to have about 6 hours of sleep in total for the 3 nights. For another, it helps you realise what kind of a cockster you can be when you’re sleep deprived. You can really feel all the gibberish coming out from people when they are sleepy, and that includes me of course. I have someone who can call Darren Ho as “Joel” because he didn’t know what Darren’s name was.

So with 11 days more to my 10km run (and something else to look forward to that evening), time to prep myself (for both events that is). Till the next post, cya people.

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